Recently, the Life of Pi movie came into my head. I have the book but I’ve just not got round to reading it yet. I’ve seen the movie though and it’s now one of my favourite movies of all time! I only saw it because I wanted something in the background while I tried to complete some university work but I ended up being caught off guard by how amazing it was. It has to be one of the most captivating stories told and I highly recommend seeing the film.
I bring the movie up because recently, me and the girl who ended things between us recently said she didn’t want to talk anymore. Basically, she’s become very unwell mentally and she’s had to drop out of university. She’s decided or the people who are treating her mental health decided, that using her phone is bringing down her mood and making her more unwell. So for the next 6 months/ year +, she won’t be using her phone anymore. We recently said goodbye to each other on Facetime , as she doesn’t know when she’ll speak to me again. She’s not getting rid of her phone completely which kind of made me think she just doesn’t want to speak to me anymore but she got annoyed by that so I was and am probably over thinking it. Anyway, not being able to talk to her anymore and having to say goodbye, made me think of the “Life of Pi” ending. I’m not sure if it’s the same as the book and I do plan on reading the book, but it’s a beautiful ending to the movie and I feel like it relates or I can relate to it. If you haven’t seen it, spoilers coming up but I’ve put a link to the two videos for the ending below. I do recommend watching the movie though before you watch the ending clips as I feel like it won’t be as moving without seeing the whole film.
“I suppose in the end the whole of life becomes an act of letting go, but what always hurts the most, is not taking a moment to say goodbye”. This line resonates with me so much. With my first ever girlfriend, the one who hurt me so badly and who has been a huge part of me being so mentally unwell for a long time, we didn’t end on good times. Therefore, there was never a proper goodbye or any sort of goodbye. I never got any answers of why she ended things or what I did wrong. She just left me. She was horrible about me and to me. When Richard Parker in the movie leaves, it’s absolutely heartbreaking. “At the edge of the jungle, he stopped. I was certain he was going to look back at me. Flatten his ears to his head, growl. That he would bring our relationship to an end in someway… But he just stared ahead, into the jungle. And then Richard Parker my fierce companion, the terrible one who kept me alive…disappeared, forever from my life”.
Every time I watch that scene, I start crying. It doesn’t matter if I watch it once or twenty times in a row, I will always cry at it. The scene is so beautifully crafted and the acting is fantastic but like I said, it’s one of my favourite movie endings because I can relate to it. Goodbyes are really important or at least they are to me. When you get up and leave someone or you hang up the phone, you always say goodbye. It’s a nice resolution and a stamp on things ending. I never had that in my first relationship and that has always bothered me. With my most recent situation, we said goodbye to each other but it just didn’t feel right. I feel like more should have been said, that she should have given me more answers to questions I had or at least given me longer to say goodbye. But the phone conversation was about 15 minutes, I got no answers to questions I had and I have no idea when or if I’ll ever speak to her or see her again. It’s really upsetting
Anyway, I wanted to share the movie with you and how I relate to it because that goodbye I had happened pretty recently and I just wanted to talk about it. Have you ever had to say goodbye to someone? Have you not got the answers or the perfect goodbye or ending you wanted? Have you had to say goodbye when you didn’t want too and how did you handle it? Leave a comment and let me know. I hope you enjoyed the read 🙂